The More-Ness of Less-Ness

This has been an ongoing theme lately in my life. I look back on all the things I thought I needed to be content and it’s a curiosity that makes me wonder what I was thinking. Who needs to be that busy to try and find contentment?? I find I don’t like being so busy anymore. Now, that doesn’t mean I don’t want things and stuff, but it does mean that I am now trying to devote time to figuring out how to achieve those things more efficiently. The fervor and lightening-speed fast pace that used to accompany my life just doesn’t fit anymore.

That was my life x10 for the last 14 of my 16 years of being an entrepreneur. Before I knew it, it took over my whole life. The ghost of You Could Fall Off the Map At Any Moment chased me forever and a day and no matter what I did I found that my main state of being was fear. Fear of losing it all. Fear of getting behind everyone else. Fear of failure.

I look back and I see that when I was the height of my success I didn’t even notice it. I did notice, however, that I was at the height of anxiousness. I was so busy running from the ghost, I not only didn’t get to enjoy my success, even worse I wasn’t even grateful for it. How sad is that? It wasn’t even that I wanted a bigger house, a fancier car, or whatever the latest bling was at the time. It was that I was on the entrepreneurial hamster wheel of “DON’T STOP NOW OR YOU’LL CEASE TO EXIST”.

Then I realized something that far outweighed success and fear. Time. Not even just “time”, but slow time. Slow time used to be so uncomfortable for me. It was like a detention sentence handed down for doing something bad.

I don’t know a lot but I do know this: the value of “less” has superseded “more” in ways I never expected. The more-ness of less-ness has now been tattooed on my brain and it’s been a true gift to implement this new way of existing into my life.

“The more I understand the “more-ness” of “less-ness”, the less I spend time wanting more, which in turn makes me enjoy the less I have even more.” 

Yeah…chew on that for a minute.